Time is always right to do what is right.

- Martin Luther King, Jr. -

Am i in the right path?
Doing the right thing?
Chasing the right stuff?
Having the right time?

Suddenly,i miss you.
Miss Your Good Morning SMILE.

真的很累。。

想要找个肩膀靠一靠。。

孤单，我不喜欢你。

long time no blog

Its been a long time since my last blog.
Actually i forgot this stuff, thats why i stopped blogging for almost 1 year.

When i recalled back for the past few months..i duno i should feel happy or feel sad.

Failures. That makes me sick.
One is enough. But it comes with hundreds and more.

I really want to survive through this semester.
Dont want get any failures anymore,but,its very hard and though.

Failures occurred for the past years at KL.
Friendship. <lower class-soso>
Love.          <failed>
Knowledge. <less than usual age of guys as mine>
Studies.        <forced to be as im in this course?>
and finally church ministries. <at least is good,but no good at all actually>

Am i worthy to serve God again?
Didnt make a good testimonial to my friends.
Didnt managed to glorify Lord's name,in the scope of my responsibility areas.
You can said to me: " dont be so negative thought,"
and yes,i admitted it and i tried to be happy or joyful.
But now,i can say,i cant. Really in big trouble yet i dont know how to react it.
Continue to step aside. Continue to walk to the dead end. Degree ruined. No graduation.

No motivation. No determination. No hope.
I think i should be dead at that time, if i brave enough to jump. If do so,i dont need to worry so much.
Some more i can be a new baby,new life. But thats my thought,not God's. He might have other plan on me IF i brave enough to jump into the sea.

Something crossed my mind suddenly, dont look at ur NONE, but be appreciate THINGS you got.
Coz if you dont,these disappeared and u r NO+THING.

Hope i can be a new leaf when i woke up in the next day.
I love u..,just in case If i didnt wake up..
N im sorry i didnt accompany u to subway before i went back and after that,im very regret of this decision.

**Someday at Berea, Ah pak asked who is the one you want to protect in this world?
I think of my mum after 1 seconds, and my dad for another 1 second.
But before that,i think of you after question asked and its 0.1 second before it stepped to 1 and 2 and etc.

Last,pray for MH370. Hoped they are FINE,SAFE and SOUND.
So far,they still didnt released the progress of that missing aircraft.
However, this shows that no bad news means it will be good news.
HOPE for all crew and passengers of MH370 safe is ON mood.

terima kasih TUHAN

results been released just a few moments ago...

im very nervous , because i did not do my best in some subject..

and therefore,im scared to see gred "F" ...

its 5pm...

and im so lucky enough that im considered the first view person which i can view my result smoothly wihtout any lagging before everyone knew it and trapped into cyber traffic jam...

ok,there goes the result and WOW~!!!

i really become happy and excited straight away after i saw my result..

n it wiped away my sadness, nervous, Gan Jeong-ness to very very far place...

really thanks GOD very very very very very muchhhhhhhh~!!!!

say frankly, i really didnt confident enough that i can get those certain result with pass as i didnt do it well and didnt managed to finish answered all the question..

n for the very first time,i get an A-,better than nothing...i alwaz get B+ but not A before tis..

but GOD really heard my prayer, n HE DID it~! Really need to glorify my LORD and be Humble~!

Thanks God !

i must be more serve HIM and read bibles ~ be more disciplined with God words..

got another 1 year~! i mz GOT FAITH~! coz i got GOD in my heart~ =)

words b4 go 508

待会儿，我就要穿黑衣，到STADIUM KELANA JAYA，参加今晚民联的人民集会！

很激动，虽然下午疲倦，但是睡不着。。因为选举不公，几天了气还卡在喉咙！！

听说，警察不给PERMIT，就说这集会很可能演变成非法集会。。

所以，希望待会儿，警察维持次序就好，不要请我们“喝水”和“吃罐头”就可以了。。

虽然我不是民联的忠实支持者，但是，我却很不开心。。

虽然505选举，我还在考试，但是505从傍晚直到深夜，我一直都在关注选举结果。。

还没看到成绩之前，就看到facebook很多人post有外劳持着我国的IC投票，

要去投票。。哇老eh！哪里可以这样的，还有警察保护，真的是啊！

太没天理了，不是我国的国民，这么可以投票！！！

再说，投票时间过了，算计选票时，直到深夜还超过100个席位没公布。。

数学有这么差吗？你动作慢，不用紧，反正政府官员一向来都是SLOW&STEADY。。

哪里知道，看到围在计票中心外的朋友post了一些照片，

说晚上11PM了，还有票箱送进去，有没有可能啊？！

砂捞越内陆的票箱都已经在天黑之前都到计票中心了。。

不可能路途发达的西马这么慢到？难道官员背着票箱meh。。

太玩臭了吧！！而且还发生“大马停电”事件。。

虽然时间有待进一步的认知，但是无风不起浪。。

我真是对选举委员会-SPR（SURUHANJAYA PILIHAN RAYA）感到很失望！

立场不独立，不公平，不公正；

就像一场足球比赛，还没踢，评判就已经是偏向甲方的，而一直给乙方红卡。。

所以，今晚，宅男的我，决定要不畏危险，为马来西亚争取独立且公正！！

今晚我去这个集会，不会让父母知道，因为他们一定不会让我去。。

但是若我不去，我心中这把火，只是小火，不能与其他小火集中，形成大火！！

要让政府知道，我们，一定会接受选举的成绩，

但是绝对不允许，赢取选举的过程中利用任何的污点及肮脏的手段。。

说到这个，我觉得我读错科了。。

看到BERSIH，看到选举，警察在这些活动都被利用，成为政府玩臭的工具。。

所以，我立下决心，我，若成功申请到，我一定要做警察！！

做警察，不让警察成为政府欺压人民的工具，也不乱乱随便用武器对付手无寸铁的人民！

今晚，不知有什么变数，希望一切的集会，从头到尾，顺利，和平的落幕。。

警察也发出专业的国际态度，维持中立，不乱来欺压人民。。

而我，与朋友们能一起声讨这选举不公，过后平安的抵达宿舍。。

求主怜悯我们，看顾我们，保护我们，赐平安给集会和附近的地方。。

爸、妈，就让我不听话一次，为国家，献出一份力量！！

为我祷告！为大会安全祷告！祝一切顺利！！

我出发咯！！！

丁，遇见你是我的荣幸。。若我真的发生任何事情，记得，遇见你，是上帝赐给我的一份礼物。。和你一起，使我感觉这人生还有美丽的明天。。

first paper

Final exam,is now approaching...

and i had done my first paper for this final exam..

Before exam..im very excited and happy..little bit nervous..relax..

it is because this paper im prepared and im sure i can do well...

the moment stepped into the exam hall...oklar...

then read on the question paper..okla..i got do revision about this..supposed be no problem...

OK,final exam,START~!

I start to do the question well and steady until i do the sub-2nd question...

suddenly im not sure the method of my calculation is right or wrong...

all of sudden,im very nervous...and straight away i rubbed off my answer and do again..
(actually is right but i write the final answer which is totally wrong,OMG!! )

at this moment...

my feel like:"walau,this calculation do count all or later count all?

this calculation need do wastage?? whr is the profit?? am i counting the right figure??

all of sudden..i lost my confident...n in theory part i just lose the most precious marks..

which i write the right answer (according to my friends,the "right answer" )...

that drafted on the question paper but.......

i write another answer on answer sheet because i thought that is not the right answer...

Ishhhhhh~!!! feel like wana banged myself to the wall....

Really doesnt feel like want to continue study anymore...but...

i still need to going on..!!! i got 4 paper left and its more tough x 10 than this paper =.=

OmGosh!! what i study and hardworking so long,i cant get the paid back,n worst is negative paid~!



NOW,im really Bo MOOD study...but,my mind think i shouldnt do this but my heart is beh song lo..

My mind : this is just a test, and its over...so why dont u put it down,learn a lesson,and fight for the next paper?

My heart: Walau,i focus on this and read this and study this,but i do wrong answer on answer sheet...sien lo...haizzz...


such a failure today...

What u pain doest mean what u will gain in future...and moreover, u will be pain again n again...

Jiayou to me la...><

24~

hanks God for bringing me to the Earth on this day..

thanks to my mum that give birth to me..

thanks to my father for take care of me since the day i live on earth..

thanks to my two elder sis n my ah gor for love their youngest bro much..

thanks to my friends that makes my life with many colours..

n special Thanks to all of YOU tat still rmb my burfday n ur blessings...

so warmly and lovely one..feel so blessing~~

time fliess fast..burfday's over..=)..im 24's now ^^

my birthday~ special thanks to my housemates~ =)